[The answer comes both easily and immediately, and the blush is spreading across his cheeks now, but he doesn't care. The reply is almost as forceful as any objection he's given in court. The explanation that follows is much more subdued.]
...I want us to be together. I guess I just... I don't actually know what that entails, I mean, at least when it's... We're both men?
[He hates that he both sounds and FEELS like a blushing maiden admitting that, but it won't do to be dishonest. This is entirely new territory for him.
There's also a voice in the back of his head that's whispering urgent warnings to him. This is a bad idea. You're doing exactly what you promised NOT to do. Conflating the Kazuma he lost with this present one, one who had to be told what his own name was. Ryunosuke shuts those doubts hard the instant they emerge. He doesn't care. He desperately longs for what he missed, regrets his past inaction and indecision. Recalling all that, he's not about to let this opportunity slip through his fingers... For good or for ill.]
[Kazuma lets out a laugh--his old, familiar one, though of course he has no idea--like Ryunosuke has said something funny.]
I promise you, that's only a problem if you make it one.
[...But that's not all, is it? Kazuma's face softens immediately after, to reassure Ryunosuke that he's not actually laughing at him.]
It doesn't have to be anything other than what you want it to be. [And then, something occurs to him, as he feels a spike of panic.] I--that is, if I've overstepped--
[Hearing that laugh triggers such an overwhelming wave of affection, all his questions and doubts go momentarily out the window. It also emboldens him enough to take an extra direct approach towards getting Kazuma to shut up.
He leans over the back of the couch and gently grabs Kazuma's chin, tilting his face so he can lean in and give him a kiss.
It's an impulsive decision on Ryunosuke's part. And a bit ridiculous in tone. But most of all, it's exhilarating.]
[ Kazuma does indeed shut up when Ryunosuke kisses him--he's so surprised he forgets to reciprocate, his eyes instead going wide as he processes what just happened.
Then he immediately turns in his seat to pull Ryunosuke back in and kiss him properly. Not long--just a confirmation to respond to Ryunosuke's own. When it ends, Kazuma is smiling in a way that's almost shy. ]
So... that's that, then?
[ Because if that's Ryunosuke's only doubt... there's nothing else to worry about, right? It can be as uncomplicated and thoughtless as they want. ]
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[The answer comes both easily and immediately, and the blush is spreading across his cheeks now, but he doesn't care. The reply is almost as forceful as any objection he's given in court. The explanation that follows is much more subdued.]
...I want us to be together. I guess I just... I don't actually know what that entails, I mean, at least when it's... We're both men?
[He hates that he both sounds and FEELS like a blushing maiden admitting that, but it won't do to be dishonest. This is entirely new territory for him.
There's also a voice in the back of his head that's whispering urgent warnings to him. This is a bad idea. You're doing exactly what you promised NOT to do. Conflating the Kazuma he lost with this present one, one who had to be told what his own name was. Ryunosuke shuts those doubts hard the instant they emerge. He doesn't care. He desperately longs for what he missed, regrets his past inaction and indecision. Recalling all that, he's not about to let this opportunity slip through his fingers... For good or for ill.]
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I promise you, that's only a problem if you make it one.
[...But that's not all, is it? Kazuma's face softens immediately after, to reassure Ryunosuke that he's not actually laughing at him.]
It doesn't have to be anything other than what you want it to be. [And then, something occurs to him, as he feels a spike of panic.] I--that is, if I've overstepped--
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He leans over the back of the couch and gently grabs Kazuma's chin, tilting his face so he can lean in and give him a kiss.
It's an impulsive decision on Ryunosuke's part. And a bit ridiculous in tone. But most of all, it's exhilarating.]
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Then he immediately turns in his seat to pull Ryunosuke back in and kiss him properly. Not long--just a confirmation to respond to Ryunosuke's own. When it ends, Kazuma is smiling in a way that's almost shy. ]
So... that's that, then?
[ Because if that's Ryunosuke's only doubt... there's nothing else to worry about, right? It can be as uncomplicated and thoughtless as they want. ]
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He grins. Shy, or shy-adjacent, is not a look he's used to seeing on Kazuma, but he likes it.]
Yes... I think that's that.